Yesterday was...

An emotional day. Jacob went running with me in the morning and I was doing really well the first half of the run(averaging a 12 minute mile) and then couldn't pull out for the second half. The workout was run 10 minutes, walk 3 minutes and run 10 minutes. I cramped up really bad when I started out on my second run. Jacob offered to push the stroller so I could run by myself to see if that was the problem. It wasn't and it felt funny running without the stroller. I felt like my body was going all over the place and that I was off balance. I broke down and started to cry but I couldn't really cry because I was out of breath. I was so mad at myself. I had run 20 minutes straight last Friday but I couldn't pull out this interval run. And I was frustrated that I was struggling to keep pace and Jacob was just fine. After we got home Jacob and I decided that he wouldn't go running with me anymore until I built myself up to a faster time. He also told me that I was way too hard on my self and way too competitive. (Which is hilarious because you should see him. HE'S the competitive one).
I was pissed the whole rest of the morning. I didn't feel like I had accomplished anything fitness wise and was feeling down about the whole thing. So I mentioned to Jacob that I would like to go hiking. There is this ugly mountain about 15 minutes away with No tree cover and tons of sage brush that is a popular hike for the locals. The last time I hiked it was right after Thanksgiving with my in laws and I almost died. I was exhausted after the first hill and barely made it up to the top. I needed some proof that what I was doing with my running and cross training on my elliptical was getting me somewhere.
So we set off to go hike. I was amazing! Emma hiked all the way up and most of the way down by herself and I made it up and didn't feel out of breath or tired at all at the top. I was elated! I was proud of myself and amazed at my little 3 year old for hiking a mile and a half up a pretty freaking steep mountain. She kept pace with us and complained a few times but all Jacob had to ask was if she wanted a blue slush from Sonic and she barreled up that mountain. Of course we had to stop a few times for her but she did it! I even ran up the last part of the trail to the top. It felt amazing! Now I know that I have improved my health. I still don't look great but I am able to be active.
After the hike the girls played at the playground. Linnea loved the swing(and the hike). She laughed the whole time. I am so excited for the warmer weather so we can do more hiking. My run tomorrow is 25 minutes of non-stop running and I now have a new found drive to keep with it.